I’m not sure how I feel about my past

I’m not sure how I feel about my past
a man should be able to say
this was good
this was bad
but there is nothing you can trust about that strange little worm
that is one’s memory.

I drove a 1970 Datsun 510 sedan
(unless I didn’t)
and descended on Monterey Bay nothing like
the Assyrian
(unless I did)
no wolf on the fold
no one mad, bad, or dangerous to know
trained to look backwards through the telescope
to see everything as small
pretending experience
instead of lying back
instead of letting the warm glory
of youth ravish me
as it should

I have finally learned to let go
but now there is nothing left of me that tries
to get away

—Don Whittington

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s